When the First Day of School Falls Apart

The First day of school is supposed to be good. For some mythical reason, the first day has a defining way of determining how the rest of the school year may turn out. But my first day is not something I would even wish on an enemy. ūüėČ On a scale of badness, it ranks near a 10.¬†

It all started with a simple cold.

On the night before classes, the dorm was abuzz. But this young lady felt slightly amuck. 

Yes, I went to bed feelinalarm-clock-1193291_1920g slightly ill. And woke up 2 hours later decidedly uncomfortable. And stayed awake for the next 5 hours. Trying to sleep, but coveted rest evaded me. 

At around 5;45, I managed to doze off. Only to wake an hour later for class. A cold shower didn’t really wake me up. The words from my devotions didn’t quite compute. Make up made me look a little fresher, but my brain felt heavy as mud.¬†
Luckily, there was an hour break between 2 of my classes. I managed to fall asleep for about 20 minutes of that. 

Somehow, I did not fall asleep in our college chapel. And my feet made their way to my 1 o’clock class.¬†

I was looking forward to this class, it’s an elective. A theatre arts class on acting. But our intro lesson wasn’t too active, a lecture on the art form of acting. My tired hands managed a few notes, at one point I was sure it had been 45 minutes. I looked at the clock, it had barely passed the 15 mark.¬†

Could my brain get any more muddled? 

Enter French class. I settled unto my chair, vaguely writing the name of the class on my notebook. A voice spoke beside me, I turned. “Excuse me?”

“I said my name in French,” the chipper young man grinned, “Comment ca va?”

“Um,” my mind scrambled, “I don’t know any French.”¬†

“I took French in high school, what did you take?”

“Spanish,” I mumbled, turning back to my notebook.

“Really? You speak Spanish?”

How little could I say to silence him? 


“Not ‘a’, it’s male. So poco.” He continued cheerily, “Como esta? Mi nombre Caleb.”

I have never struggled that hard for words in my life. My brain swum, digging uselessly for Spanish files. Finally, I managed a weak response, “Sorry, I’m tired. Not getting anything right now.”

“Oh!” He continued, chipper as ever, “Spritsch du Deutsch?”

I blinked, “Uh, no.”

Silence, before he again spoke, “Ok. Do you speak English?”

Thankfully, the professor began before I could clobber this guy with my textbook. Wouldn’t want to get demerits for violence on the first day of class.¬†

But seriously, when I finally was able to catch up on sleep, I was able to think about my day. Before getting to college, I had determined a theme for my semester. I want to fully rely on God. I’m very self-sufficient, and hate being dependent on anyone.¬†
Sometimes this attitude is a deterrent in my relationship with God. But having a terrible, horrible, totally bad day reminded me of my desperate need for Jesus.

I had ¬†promised a freshman to have dinner together that evening. I was so tempted to text and beg for a different time, but I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. One, she was a freshman, and my cancellation would most likely leave her eating alone. And I had other dinner plans sketched out for other nights, and I wanted to leave time to devote to my new friend. Reshuffling her felt incredibly selfish, especially since my excuse was simply so I could take a nap.

So I prayed, “God I can’t do this. Please help me stay awake.” And God really did help me. All day, God helped me stay awake. In class. In required services. And even during a simple¬†dinner.

In the end, I didn’t post any ‘first day of class’ pics. And I went to bed a whole lot earlier than normal.¬†

the lord my help

A Redheaded Texas Gal. I love the woods and thrive where there’s green grass and room to grow. I dream of living in a used book store and wearing period costumes to work everyday. In the meantime, I’m studying Journalism and Political Science, and trying to follow Jesus wherever He leads.

  • Rebekah

    I love this! And you never know how your sacrifice will impact that freshman! <3